Good bye Notts...

I guess this is my last posting from Notts... The time has finally come for me to say good bye to this lovely place..I really have enjoyed my 6 month stay here (though I would have enjoyed it more if my loved ones are here with me)...

If my research goes well as planned - Insya Allah- I'll be coming back again to Notts in Jan 2010, with my Zharfan of course..can't bear the misery if I were to come here alone again :(

So my journey back will start tomorrow morning, as I'll be taking National Express coach(bus) at Broadmarsh bus station at 11.50 am, expected to arrive at London Heathrow Airport at 3.30 pm. My flight to KLIA is at 10 pm, so I would have enough time to manage my 2 trolley bags, to settle the check-in, to perform my prayers etc... And I'll be arriving in Msia at 6.20 pm on Saturday!!! Can't wait to see my hubby - I miss him sooo much- I guess he knows how I've been missing him lately...

"Tonight I resign myself to missing you for I know I have the rest of my life to wake up next to you."

And I would be seeing my little sweetheart the following day...Mama will come home to see you and fetch you 'adik'....

Bye Bye Notts...

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Mama Zharfan
8.20 am

The final 2 days...

No words can describe my excitement of waiting for the moment for me to go home - that reminds me of the similar excitement when I was waiting for the 'aqad nikah' last 4 years ;)

I spent the whole day today in my room...no mood to go out, as last nite I was not feeling well (I kept on sneezing and sneezing-an early symptom of flu). So I just had a full rest today to regain my health. I wanna be healthy and happy when I meet my hubby and baby soon!

I sent an email to NMC yahoo groups, saying thanks & goodbye to all NMCs who have been very kind to me when I was here for the past 6 months :)

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Mama Zharfan
6.05 pm

3 more days...

I wanna have a long list of sweet memories here in Notts...I had my final shopping trip to city today...I had a stroll, window shopping at Broadmarsh & Victoria Centre...and I did buy some stuff for me...
I always love to shop here ;)

The days for me to be back in Msia are getting closer and closer now...
In the morning I called my baby, and in the eve I called my hubby - What can be better than talking to my loved ones :)

I'm having an obsession with a song titled "Ketulusan Cinta" by Anuar Zain...I already dedicated the its lyrics to my hubby via email the other day....the lyrics are simply awesome; and romantic of course..

"Cintaku tak berdusta
Tak mengenal ingkar
Tak kenal nestapa
Cintaku hanya indah
Hanya bahagia untuk selamanya

Apa yang kurasakan ini
Persembahan untuk dirimu
Kau biarkan kasihku

Mencintaimu tak mengenal waktu
Tak mengenal puitis
hanya tulusnya hati
mencintaimu tak mengenal ragu
keyakinan hatiku hanya untuk dirimu selalu

Cintaku tak berdusta
Tak mengenal ingkar
Tak kenal nestapa
Tak ada seribu janji
Hanya bahagia untu selamanya
Apa yang kurasakan ini
Persembahan untuk dirimu
Kau benarkan kasihku
Mencintaimu tak mengenal waktu
Tak mengenal puitis hanya tulusnya hati
Mencintaimu tak mengenal ragu
Keyakinan hatiku hanya untuk dirimu selalu

Apa yang kurasakan ini
Persembahan untuk dirimu
Kau dengarkan kasihku

Mencintaimu tak mengenal waktu
Tak mengenal puitis hanya tulusnya hati
Mencintaimu tak mengenal ragu
Keyakinan hatiku hanya untuk dirimu selalu"

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Mama Zharfan
3.45pm

Our sweetheart

I was talking to my hubby on the phone - he keeps on telling me that his life is so dull, so empty without me and our Zharfan around...as usual, our conversation revolves around our little darling...It has been almost 7 months since I left my baby...Can't imagine his first reaction when he sees me at the airport this coming 23rd March...the most important, much-awaited part is I wanna hug him and kiss his lovely cheeks...Mama really miss you 'adik'...

Last week, I received couple of latest pics of Zharfan from my niece, Wanie. She snapped the pics using her handphone...It seems that my Zharfan is a big boy now...

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Mama Zharfan
3.15 pm

Farewell lunch

I had a lunch (my treat) at Khyberpas with all my good friends here in Notts - Farizah, Fatz, Qawy, Aisyah & Latip. We were so hungry that we really2 enjoyed the yummy food there ;)

"the words 'thank you' seem so small and yet mean so much and I hope you all understand the depth of my gratitude.."

I gave a call to my Zharfan in the morning..so delighted to hear his happy voice...
Then I called my hubby - he was down with fever & flu since last nite- pity my darling, he's got to take care of his own, I understand how does he feel, especially when he needs someone to comfort him, to soothe him...it's just another 5 days dear...I'm coming back to be with you again...

So after the lunch, I gave him another call, just to make sure he's ok...he told me that he has taken some medicine...I pray that he'll get well soon...

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Mama Zharfan
4.05 pm

Final weekend

I had a bee-zy day today...
In the morning, after giving a call to my hubby, I went to Asda with Farizah (managed to grab a pair of trousers for my Zharfan :)

After a yummy lunch at her house, I joined Farizah&Fatz, Aisyah& Latip to visit a newborn babygirl of Zue&Dr Syed...

After Asr prayer, I attended Helwa's gathering and activities held at Dalina's house - delicious mee jawa and some other heavenly food...

Aisyah&Latip gave me a lift home..I arrived back at 8 pm... There goes my final Saturday here at Notts ;)

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Mama Zharfan
8.05 pm

One more week to go!!!

At last, I have 7 more days here to spend at Notts..

This morning, I gave my Zharfan a call - as usual, keep telling him that Mama's coming home soon...I always love to hear his sweet voice saying (repeating my words) "I love u" whenever I say that phrase to him :)

"For yesterday's memories, today's love, and tomorrow's dreams I love you."

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Mama Zharfan
4.15 pm

Our little darling-Zharfan ;)

I miss my baby like crazy...and my hubby shares this feeling too...

This morning, when I went to Sainsbury to buy some groceries, I saw a cute swimming suit for boys. I remember last time my hubby asked me to buy one for our little darling, if the suit is the 2 pieces type. So without even a second thought, I put that suit into the trolley and then proceeded to the till(cashier)!
My boy loves playing with water, and I have on my mind few plans to bring him for vacation-that includes having a splash in the swimming pool of course :)

In the eve, I was talking to my hubby on the phone - all those lovey-dovey conversation ;)...8 days seem too long for us to wait *sigh*

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Mama Zharfan
6 pm

Final meeting

It's a great relief after the meeting with Prof Torremans ended at 2.40 pm...Alhamdulillah, the work here is done :)

In the morning, I called up my niece, Ila to congratulate her for an excellent result in SPM- she got 12A (9A1 and 3A2) - repeating our family academic excellence.I pray that her ambition to become a dentist (so that she could inherit her papa's clinics) will become true, Insya Allah.

My hubby gave me sms, asking me to wake him up early tomorrow morning because he's got to work outstation to JB tomorrow morning...

Final countdown : 9 MORE DAYS to go!!!

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Mama Zharfan
4.15 pm

Boxes arrived!

Alhamdulillah, the 2 large boxes that I sent via Palshipping have been delivered safely this eve (Msian time)- my hubby told me via sms while I was waiting for the hopper bus to go back to my flat. He was so excited to see all the stuff that I sent, I just asked him to take out all the chocs and put it into the fridge, and to take out our Zharfan's toys as well ;)

I was supposed to have the final meeting with Prof Torremans at 11.30 am, but he did not turn up...so I just left him a note, requesting for the re-appointment. As soon as I reached home, Prof gave me an email, informing that his meeting at 11 am was overran, hence I may see him tomorrow; I opt for 2 pm tomorrow*sigh*

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Mama Zharfan
4.45 pm

I'm lonely

I email my hubby (almost everyday) - that's one of the ways for me to overcome my loneliness...to know that he also misses me like I miss him is very comforting.... and I know my Zharfan also misses me, just the way I miss him, every single second..

"I don't miss you and you alone; I miss you and me together."

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Mama Zharfan
5 pm

Greatest blessings

One of the greatest blessings in life is to live in a peaceful, lovely, harmonious and prosperous country...I pray to Allah that my beloved country Msia will always be in His care and rahmah...

Another equally wonderful blessings in life is to love and be loved. I have been showered with these - the feeling is hard to be described...I'm so lucky and thankful to God for what I have now - I'm blessed with loved ones - my baby, my hubby, my parents, my siblings, my friends; and I'm elated to know that the feeling is mutual ;)

"A hug for you means I need you. A kiss for you means I love you. A call for you means I'm missing you."

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Mama Zharfan
4.45 pm

Election mood!

Yup, I have been surfing and chatting on the net for few hours - just to get the latest update of the election result. I chatted with my sis-jema, then i chat with my niece-wanie, my future sis-in-law-aimi, and also my coursemate-dany. The lovely part of course i called my hubby few times to share our excitement over the result. Some unexpected result, some miracles :)
Dare to differ :)

*I was overjoyed when my hubby told me that he always reads my blog - I thought he is to busy to do that ;) that really cheers me up...

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Mama Zharfan
7.05 pm

Final Countdown - 2 WEEKS MORE!!

yes, just another 2 more weeks to go...

can't resist my eagerness to start packing...so I just put all the clothes into my two trolley bags with the main intention to see how heavy the bags will be...it's a relief to know that the bags are not that heavy - after all I have sent most of the stuff via Palshipping - they came to collect the 2 boxes yesterday eve..

General election in Msia will be held tomorrow-my mom was telling me that perang poster is everywhere!! Too bad I could not cast my vote this time...got to wait for another 4 years then *sigh*

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Mama Zharfan
5.40 pm

It hurts..

It is painful, hurts, truly miserable for these final 2 weeks for me to go through...the closer is the harder, the more unbearable it becomes...

I miss my baby, my hubby, my parents, all my loved ones in Msia...

"Each time I miss you, a star falls down from the sky. So, if you looked up at the sky and found it dark with no stars, it is all your fault. You made me miss you too much!"

I love being here in Notts, but I hope that I won't come here alone again in the year 2010 - I'm not that strong to face the loneliness for the second time :(

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Mama Zharfan
6.20 pm

Nightie

I'd say that UK is such a great place to shop - a shopping heaven for a 'shopholic' like me...I'm greatly impressed with the collection of babies and kids wear like Mothercare, Pumpkin Patch, Adams, GAP, and branded items like Clarks, Marks&Spencer, Next etc.

For the past few months I have been in obsession with my collection of nightie/chemise that I managed to buy while I'm here... They are so lovely, and affordable too! -Can't wait to wear it ;)

Indeed, the purchasing power here is very high- can't compare with Msia of course :)

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Mama Zharfan
6.05 pm

In my shoes

I've got two friends here who are enduring a similar loneliness for being away from family - Ruth & Fizah, both are split phD students like me...

Yesterday eve, Ruth dropped by at my room, just wanna say hi. She told me that she can't focus on her study anymore as she is expecting her hubby who will be arriving here on 18th March...As usual we exchanged our similar stories of loneliness - except that she doesn't have a baby yet...

This afternoon, Fizah gave a me a phone call - and guess what, she also told me that she can no longer focus on her study, as she is very much looking forward to go back to Msia on 28th March, a week after my departure(soon..)... Among three of us, Fizah said that I'm the strongest, as I have not seen my hubby for the continuous 6 months, while she is luckier in the sense that her hubby came to visit her last December....

Yeah, I'm strong...but tears is always my best companion whenever I feel that it is no longer bearable, whenever I feel like I can't take it anymore...
Just another 17 days, so I have to comfort myself to keep on being strong emotionally, though I can't focus on my study anymore, exactly like Ruth and Fizah ;)

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Mama Zharfan
5.30 pm

Good news

I called up Puan Raihan of IIUM Educare. It's a great relief to hear that she has noted my appeal to re-enrol my Zharfan and she promised that if there is any vacancy, the place would be given to my boy...

I also managed to speak to Puan Intan of TH Travel, and she quickly emailed to me the e-ticket- a piece of a very vital document that would enable me to check-in for my flight on 21st March!!!

I was chatting with my friend Ezna on ym... we shared our vision & dream for this year - we hope and pray to be blessed with a baby soon...at the same time, I expressed to her my doubt.. that I'm thinking of reconsidering the plan to conceive this year...I really2 need to discuss this matter with my hubby and my mom when I'm back in Msia...deep in my heart, I'd love to have another baby, but is that a right decision? Am I able to juggle two important things at one time - having a baby and a very hight commitment for my phD research...

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Mama Zharfan
4.10 pm

Carboot again ;)

I joined Farizah & Fadzil to Derby carboot sale today. Nothing specific in mind to buy, just wanna have a stroll & window shopping, rather than being alone in my room. I end up buying a cute Mickey Mouse Toaster!! Then we went to Corwick carboot as Farizah wanna buy a tot car seat for her boy.

We dropped by at Kak Mai's house as she's leaving for Msia tonite - that adds to my excitement seeing her hubby & friends busily packing and weighing the bulky bags for her!!! Can't wait for turn to go back to Msia - which is just another 2 weekends away ;)

Lunch as usual at Farizah's house - yummy spagehetti mee soup- my fav!! Thanks Farizah- I gonna miss your cooking..

I gave my hubby a short phone call while I was at Asda - he said that life's so dull being alone without me and our Zharfan around...I keep on telling him that it's just another 2 weekends, then everything will be back as usual - our happy family together again!!

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Mama Zharfan
5.00 pm

Dinner

I just got back from Kak Tim's house. She cooked heavenly dishes for the dinner - masak lemak cili api, sambal udang, kuah rojak+vege, and yummy desert!!

We had a chat, and her hubby Abg Zainal has sent me back to Raleigh Park at around 10.30 pm.. Kak Tim is as nice as Kak Ida - no wonder they are good friends, and I always count my blessings for having known them :)

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Mama Zharfan
10.50 pm

Bye Bye February

Today is the last day of February...that means my much awaited time is closer and closer...21 more days to go...

Spring is just around the corner- I love to see bright, yellow daffodils blooming everywhere, as if it just popped out of the ground, a lovely sight indeed!!!

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Mama Zharfan
4.40 pm